I feel like it’s been a while since I sat down and did a chatty post like this. So hello! How are you? Would you like a cup of tea before I get started?
I posted a few months ago that I was taking the plunge and leaving my job following maternity to become a full-time blogger.
That blog post was over two months ago, so I thought I’d update how I’ve been doing and the feelings I’ve been experiencing.
Just like with any change in your life, transitioning to being a full-time blogger has been a bit of a rollercoaster. I knew it wouldn’t be easy and I am embracing the challenges. Most of them do seem to be around my mindset and self-confidence so that it something I can work on and I hope will improve with time.
So, let’s get into it!
Imposter Syndrome Alert!
Despite blogging for 9 years and making money for most of that, I still feel like the new girl at work. I guess this is a novelty for me still. It’s like a dream come true but I hardly believe it.
I feel like an imposter a lot of the time when it comes to blogging full-time. Especially with Instagram as I don’t have large numbers there and it’s always such a slog to get engagement and followers.
I also feel like people just think I’m a stay at home mum being kept by my (soon to be) husband and just pretending to make an income blogging!
I’m experienced in so many ways when it comes to blogging, but naive in many others and I’ve been having to navigate new feelings and pressures around blogging, rather than it being a hobby or second income.
I have a few paid Instagram campaigns coming up and I’m so proud I’ve got them, but I can’t help but feel like my content won’t be good enough and won’t get enough engagement!
The fear of not making money is big! Even though I have an emergency fund and I have a sinking fund for things like Christmas, car repairs and birthdays – I am afraid one day I won’t make enough to pay my way.
Fortunately, I’ve been fine so far but there’s been a few weeks here and there where I’ve been a bit quiet and that worries me. But then one day I’ll get loads of emails about collaborations and I’ll feel good again!
I just make extra effort to look for work and email contacts when this happens.
Money can be unevenly spread. One month, I might have lots of work but don’t see it all until the next month. This usually results in having a month where I earn less and then one where I earn more! I’ve come to enjoy being owed money the following month as it’s nice to know I don’t need to stress as much that much.
Diversifying my income
I’ve been working so hard on having a few income streams so I’m not just relying on this blog. I have 6 blogs that I make money from. Most of my income comes from this blog, but I’ve been working hard on my others!
Yes, it is hard work running so many blogs and I’d love to put as much love and care into them all as I do this one. That is not possible though so I just do what I can. The main goals are to get organic traffic my other blogs from Google to be able to monetise more.
I’ve even done some paid social media work and, as I mentioned, I’ve got a few upcoming collaborations for my Instagram. I’ve been working very hard on my Instagram content and I’m glad it’s paying off! Follow me here!
I’m also working on my Tiktok growth. Though it’s a bit crap at the moment, I’m hoping I can make some money through Tiktok one day. Currently, I’m just experimenting with different things and trying to improve my videos/editing. Follow me please.
I probably do need to step out of my comfort zones when it comes to Tiktok and Reels if I want to get some viral content!
Listen – I’ve never been good at handling rejection and being rejected for blogging ops is no exception. I get it, my blog and Instagram are far from the best out there and they don’t have AMAZING stats. But it’s my best. I’ve spent a lot of time and energy growing my blog and working on my content. To know that someone doesn’t appreciate it really does hurt.
I get that they are just doing a job and they see loads of blogs. It just makes me feel not good enough. Especially when I think I would be a great brief! I do think that sometimes it’s more about the numbers.
It makes me a bit afraid to put myself out there. Thankfully most people just ignore your email so you don’t have to read a reply saying you’ve been rejected!
Managing time with the baby
Finding time to blog is a nightmare. My beautiful baby contact naps and he’s a terrible sleeper. In an ideal world, he would go to sleep at 8 pm and I would spend 8 pm-midnight blogging.
In reality, he won’t go to sleep until 9:30 and will wake up crying 4 times before midnight (a sad but true example of what’s happened tonight).
It’s frustrating but it is what it is.
I do bits of work during the day but mostly reply to emails, sometimes I can do comments while Leo is playing and I do social media on my phone during his naps.
One thing I do struggle with the most is taking photos and video content. Because I need to do this during the day and I can’t just take an hour to take some nice photos, I have to do it around Leo as quickly as possible when he’s in a good mood. I really want to improve my photography but it’s difficult as I always feel rushed. It is getting easier as he gets older and is playing independently so I’m hoping it will continue to get easier.
I don’t do much of this! I’m up with Leo and look after him all day, then I blog all night. I check my emails way too much and if I see an email I need to reply to, I need to reply straight away or I get a bit stressed about it. That’s something I really need to work on!
I feel worried that if I don’t reply in time, I’ll miss the opportunity. Or it will delay a response and therefore delay the payment and I’ve just got this urgency to get the work done and get paid.
I just need to slow down and get more relaxed about things. It doesn’t help that the time I have to blog isn’t guaranteed, it’s dependant on how well Leo sleeps. My partner works 6 days a week, long hours, so the one day we do get together as a family I don’t want to spend it blogging!
How’s the money been?
It’s been great! I’ve smashed my income goals and I’ve already earned what I needed to earn for the financial year to make it worth me leaving work instead of paying childcare. I’ve actually doubled the figure on average!
I just hope things continue to work out for me so I can make this a long term plan.
So, that’s my update!