Remember being a teenager when really stupid things seemed like a really massive deal?
Looking if your friends found out your parents shopped at Netto when I was a teen, your life was over.
Well, I’m about to tell you my secret.
And you’re going to laugh because it’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard of.
My birthday is in July. This means I’m the youngest.
My best friend was a year younger than me and I remember that it happened to her first and I felt a little jealous. I mean, I had been taught about it at school and the whole idea of THAT happening to ME was disgusting and sounded like something I’d want to put off as long as possible. But I didn’t.
As time went on, it happened to more and more of my friends. There was a tiny girl in our year and when it happened to her, she told her friends who told everyone else and she was really embarrassed. and I was really jealous.
In year 9, I’d lie about it. Hint to my friends it was happening to me. Hold my stomach in pain around once a month. I started to think there was something wrong with me and that everyone would find out. I didn’t even care if there was something wrong with me, I just didn’t want everyone to find out because I always felt like an outside and was sure this was just another thing that was typical for someone like me. Another way to be different. Another way for someone to take the piss out of me.
I remember I wrote in my diary about it once. I let my best friend read my diary forgetting I wrote it and then realised. She started reading the sentence and I wrestled it off her. My big secret. It was almost out.
As a child, I always dreamed of having a big secret. I seemed mysterious and interesting. But this, I hated.
Then finally on bonfire night 16 years ago, I went to the toilet and there it was. The start of my first period. Very light, to the point where I wondered if it was a period at all.
The next day, this was a period alright.
In sex education, they say you lose about a teaspoon of blood during a period. If that is the case, then there’s something wrong with me for sure.
Then that was that. I was 14 years 4 months old when I got my first period. Which doesn’t seem too old, but most of my friends started at 11 or 12 and it make me feel very young and inexperienced.
Looking back, I feel like an idiot for lying about it, of making out I was having period pains to just infer to others I had started my periods because I was ashamed.
Kids are really stupid and insecure.
What was your biggest secret as a teen?
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