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#OOTD // The point of existence

Dress: ASOS Shoes: ASOS Necklace: New Look I’ve been feeling a light itch of melancholy lately. I don’t know if you picked it up between…

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Dress: ASOS
Shoes: ASOS
Necklace: New Look

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I’ve been feeling a light itch of melancholy lately.

I don’t know if you picked it up between last weeks #socialbloggers chat and my last OOTD post. Or my fears about death.

I watched a film the other day called Boyhood. It followed the story of a boy, his sister and mother from when he was 5 until he was 18. It was a unique film in the sense that it took 12 years to film as it used the same actors throughout.

There was one point when the boy, Mason, was 18. He was leaving for collage and his Mum started to cry, she got angry and said:

You know what I’m realising? My life is just going to go. Like that. This series of milestones. Getting married. Having kids. Getting divorced. The time that we thought you were dyslexic. When I taught you how to ride a bike. Getting divorced… again. Getting my masters degree. Finally getting the job I wanted. Sending Samantha off to college. Sending you off to college. You know what’s next? Huh? It’s my fucking funeral! Just go, and leave my picture!

She put her hands in her head and cried. ‘I just thought they’d be more‘.

I’m really feeling it lately, you know. That yearning to be more, to feel more, to see more, to do more. To find a point, or a way to make this last forever, to last longer, a way not to lose our spark when were here for such a short amount of time’

‘So, what’s the point of this, any of this? Of everything?‘ Mason asked his Dad.

Everything? What’s the point? I mean, I sure as shit don’t know. Neither does anybody else, okay? We’re all just winging it, you know? The good news is you’re feeling stuff. And you’ve got to hold on to that.

I’m still searching for it. I’ll let you know what it is when I find out.

Until then, I’m just winging it.

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39 comments

  1. You are gorgeous, adore this dress, such a great fit and shape on you :))) To be honest this winter is giving me a little bit of melancholy as well. I’m tired of rain, wind, everything really. I need sleep as well. I also feel like I should be out doing something, like seeing new things, just anything. Might just be the weather making me feel this way, but I will need to change some stuff to lift it a bit. I hope you feel a lift soon too. Have a great weekend ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

  2. The dress looks absolutely delightful on you.

    I hope you feel less melancholy soon. I think more people wing it then we ever know, but I hope you find your ‘it’. xx

  3. Aw I hope you’re feeling perkier. I get that like too, I think it’s mainly the cold gloomy winter weather. Gorgeous outfit by the way ๐Ÿ™‚ x

    thebellenarrative.com

  4. Oh gosh, I’ve been there. I had an existential crisis that lasted between like 2008-2011 and it was terrible. I find comfort in the fact that there is nothing to life, it’s all just a random series of events, so you might as well enjoy yourself and do what you like. You’ll be okay!

    But if you want to dwell a bit longer I really recommend reading “Never Let Me Go” by Kazuo Ishiguro. Oh my God is it good! It kind of deals with the same themes as Boyhood but in an unexpected way. I think you’d like it!

  5. Firstly I love the dress on you it’s lovely. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Secondly I feel you on this, I mean I am finding myself having panic attacks during the night telling myself that time is running out and I don’t have this or that and I just want to slap myself around the chops right now. I know life is so short but why can’t I seem to let go and make the “most” of it … I don’t know. xox

  6. I think I’ve said this before but I went through the same phase when I was in my late 20s, just no idea where/what I am doing with my life and always feeling that I’m missing out on something. It’ll pass, Corinne, trust me it will. It’s good that you have this feeling, better than going through life not caring and finally realizing you’re in your 50s and then it hit you, what else?
    Hugs, hope you’ll feel perkier soon and enjoy your weekend. xx

    Shireen | Reflection of Sanity

  7. Sounds like that film gave you alot to think about. Good luck with getting past this stage and figuring where you want to go in life.

  8. Cute dress! And I’m actually posting a blog post about how meaningless life can feel at times aha.

    Amy;
    Little Moon Elephant

  9. u r looking in this OOTD
    heard that movie is good and I hope u r feeling much better….it must be the weather
    Virtual hug to u all the way from India for u to feel better gal

  10. Beautiful dress. January is a time
    for reflecting maybe that is what you are doing and working out where you want to go Lucy x

  11. I think everyone’s winging it really… I guess it’s just about trying to get the most from every day and enjoying the little things. Easier said than down though, it’s horrible when you can’t get those kind of thoughts out of your head x

  12. This film sure does sound interesting and I would say that we’re all ‘winging it’ to some extent – but all the same, I hope you find what it is you’re looking for and that it gives you ‘that’ spark! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Gabrielle | A Glass Of Ice ๏ปฟ

    x

  13. All we can do is wing it, theres no handbook, no sat nav. We can take as much or as little guidance and advice from friends, family, bloggers, Jeremy Kyle as we want, but the decisions still fall on our shoulders at the end of the day. The way I see it, if I have goals that I reach, a smile on my face and a reason to get out of bed in the morning, I’m on the right track.

    We all feel like this, god knows I have on and off over the last few months, I think it’s natural to always stop and question our path. If we didn’t we’d have probably stayed on the wrong one for a VERY long time!

    Sarah ๐Ÿ™‚
    Saloca in Wonderland

  14. lovely as usual! nothing beats a feminine dress and black tights.
    about the vegetarian thing you asked (so sorry for the late reply), it’s really easy, actually! not missing meat at all, it makes sick now thinking about eating corpses! wish you good luck if you’re trying to be one ๐Ÿ™‚

  15. Hope you cheer up soon ๐Ÿ™‚ We all have those days I think. Anyways, you look lovely in your winter florals here ๐Ÿ™‚

    Mili

  16. Now, this is right up my alley! And I must say you look too sweet! Suits you really well… more mini dresses please! ๐Ÿ™‚

  17. ah, i’ve not seen boyhood yet, but i’ve heard so many good things about it! cannot deal with things like this right now though, as i’ve been having mini existential crises lately, haha. so we’re in the same boat, i suppose! xx

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